Many days has pass and I feel like I'm not doing any good so far. Perhaps because this song has captured my heart that I haven't felt in my entire life. I kept on listening to it and I tend to stitch every part of the lyrics on my heart. Maybe because I just want to keep on reminding myself not to commit the same mistake again or maybe I'm just losing my mind.
The name of the song is "The art of letting go" by Mikaila and it's true that, "When everything has change, the only thing that remains are memories", and memories are the reason why our anger, sadness, misery, and happiness keeps on coming back. I just simply want to stay on that circular event that I am happy, but no matter how much I try to think about it, only sadness is all I get in the end.
I realize now that we can't really hold on forever that is so precious to us. "You can never own something that was never yours in the first place", and let this be a reminder that we just simply borrowed it, not owning it. No matter how much we fight for it, we just keep on losing... So, I ask myself to stop gripping on things that is never meant to last forever. On my case, it's chained on my wrist that I can't let go...
"Our path is made up of destiny". The word "destiny", does this ring a bell to you? It's true, destiny can be good sometimes, yet, destiny can become playful. We thought that it was destiny that we learn to love, but what if destiny is just part of the game that the playful destiny create? And in the end, you realize that the person destined was never meant for you... "You were destined to fall in love and then leave you when you've already fallen.". So just to remind us, don't trust love stories that are destined as they are.
They say, "Love is forever.", but the truth is (now that I know), "Nothing last forever. Forever is a lie. Everthing is Transitory.", so if you had the chance, grab it! but keep in mind that you just barrowed it. One more thing to note is that, if you think that your heart have already beat faster, it is wise to stop for a while and give your heart a moment--- to breathe. My guess is, it is better to weigh our decision from our reason rather than from our emotions... because if you think about it, "the saddest thing can happen is when one falls in love, while other wants nothing more than just friendship...".
Besides than that, "Love can be magic", but you know what, magic can be an illusion! You can become part of the show, and that, you are the victim, you are the fool. There are times that I want to limit my emotions, so that my heart will not experience pain and sadness. But it also drag me to my fears that by doing it, "I will never feel the love and be love in return". Now, which will you choose? A heart that is whole but numb? Or a heart that's broken but real? Whichever side we are on... It scares the crap out of me...
Now, some might think it is just an excuse to put away our misery. They may laugh at you, some won't believe you, others will be mad at you, while others pity you... All I can say that I feel sorry for them that they don't see the fact that "it hurts you even more to hurt someone who doesn't deserve to be hurt.". Especially when you can't explain to them why you tend to be off to your relationship or worst, leave.
Someday, we'll be looking back to those days when our hearts learn to love, hurt, and fight. Maybe, when the time comes we will just look at our old dumb self and just laugh at it, "realizing how stupid we are to fight for things that we knew that were not really meant for us". But I guess learning takes time, times heals of course, and mistakes makes our life's journey fun and challenging. Living our life is what we pursue and love makes the world go round. So I will take whatever pain it brings and swallow it up, even though it's hard to wait for something that I know will never happen... and it's even harder to stop when everything that I wanted is you...
To tell you the truth, I really miss the good old days that we are together. I miss our bonding moments, the way I flirt to you and tease at you. I miss the kisses, the hugs, the chitchats and the way we make love... But I guess it's better off this way and it is good that I experience what true love is. I thought I already experience everything from my past relationship but I was wrong, really wrong... And I guess, true love are not judge from how many kisses we do, how many embraces we give, and saying "I love you" to you ... but rather ultimately judge from how we respect them and giving them unconditional love.
Despite all the hardship that I'm pulling through with you...
...I'm happy...
...and glad... glad that it happened somehow...
that we've become good friends... and I'm thankful for it.
Take care Cha... I'm just right here...
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Such a pity that your relationship has ended. Indeed,Love is forever however we must bear in mind that it also depends on the person that we choose to love..or maybe the saying "Love Hurts" is true because when we love we tend to accept the other person wholeheartedly that we give our all and accept all his/her flaws even it meant to forget ourselves.What a sad thing!! however, on the other side of the coin it means happiness. Y??? because atleast at the early stage of your relationship you know that you are not meant to be and thus, the pain is a bit tolerable. Also, having wrong choices such as this will make us more prudent in choosing the right one for us..un lng!!hehe..hope that your happy na tlga now..(in its very sense)..
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