Miss Call Syndrome

Dear Cha,

Its 9:38am in the morning when I started to write this. Yet another gloomy day for me! Yesterday, I can't help myself thinking what you said on the phone. After many calls I made, I was able to reach you and hear your voice. Hard to admit, I struggle to listen well to what you said but I can't seem to understand due to the large crowd I'm in. I close my left ear to hear you much clearer but I still can't hear you and I started to get worried. I tried to move an inch on my spot but the moment I move we tend to lost our connection. And all I keep saying is, "Ha?", "Huh??", "Unsa?", "Asa ka karon?", "Dili taka madunggan...", I don't know what to do at that time and as the moment I say another word, you hang up. I tried to call you back but it seems you've turn it off...

My co-worker on my left buying her popcorn ask, "Unya nag talk na mo?", with a long face on the floor, I said, "... Wala...".

I'm taking assumptions now that maybe you said was you can't go because it's late or maybe your are arguing with me for being persistint, or maybe.... just maybe....

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I can't tell.

Cha, I can feel that you to get irritated on my calls despite the fact that you need your space and your have work but please consider that this is the only way that I can reach you... If you don't want to talk to me at least I can hear your phone rings, a sign that you haven't left me... It would be much better if I can hear your voice, enough for my heart to beat faster, rush of blood and leap of faith. We get crazy because we cannot really tell what they feel on the other side, yes they say it but DO they MEAN it... I just can't bare to face what I am afraid off now. "Ambabaw na talaga ng pananaw sa sarili ko...".

I hope I can get in touch with you anytime soon. Take care Cha. I'm just here getting back to you.

Yours Truly,
Ian