Leaving

Dear Cha,

Its six days now since we broke up but I have no more grudge on your decision, it was YOUR decision after all and now I respect it. YES, I made a terrible mistake not to keep in touch with you in the coarse of our relationship but to tell you the truth Cha, our family is so broke at that time that I can't even afford to buy cellphone loads because I have save it for other expenses. I do the cheapest way just to keep in touch with you and that is YM! Messenger. Not to mention our scorching bills and debt. Even our telephone line was cut-off, even the the electric was cut-off. It was a headache on my part, as the only son, the Prade de Pamilya and I was struggling to reach you. My mother commit a lot of mistakes Cha, she tend to spend 80% on her wants and 20% on our needs and not sticking on the budget. She keeps on discouraging you about me, that I am not a good boyfriend for you and I am lazy, This is not true, its her personality and I can't blame her. It is also a shame to hang out with your berks at that time because the only money I have is 100 pesos in my wallet. I have to save for it for 1 week and that I fail my presence to your barkadas, that you have a boyfriend, that I exist...

Desperate, I decided to be off again for a bit to look for a job and I finally land it.
My original plan was, if I finally got my first salary, I'm gonna spend it with you! But it's so sad that I can't spent it with you now. Instead. At least you know the truth now, the WHOLE TRUTH why I was not giving you attention. It was a gamble on my part too Cha, to take the effort, but I keep always keep on saying that I can pull this off and "babawi ako".


I know you will hate me for this Cha for being persistent for the past 6 days. This my way showing my grave importance to you and I do hope that your new boyfriend is mature enough to understand my side of the story and handle your relationship. Men tend to do crazy things sometimes you know, and yes I'm crazy for creating this blog. All I wanted is to the tell the whole world how much I LOVE YOU!, tried my best to be at your level, exceed a lot of effort not to broke up with you and how much I really treasure our relationship in just a span of 1 month! I was expecting that I can make up for the weeks of negligence. But you make quick decision and it's quiet ironic that I was not given the chance to explain nor prove myself to you that I can do much better. I ask you to talk this out but you chose to ignore me. I can no longer reach you Cha.

I was about to tell you everything at the moment you said you will broke up with me. NAUNAHAN KO NIMO! WAAAAAAAA.....

Anyway, that's how life it is I suppose, you can't really tell what's in store for you in the future. And girls will be girls, I guess. Sala sa bugnaw, sala sa lamig.

I'm happy Cha as long as you are happy. I hope you already find the happiness you are looking for. I guess I'll be leaving now but I won't say goodbye to you. I'm just here Cha, if you are already calmed down, please grant me the opportunity to be back at you as friend if that is okey with you. And if you feel like talking, just give me a text and I'll call you back. Perhaps, now is not the right time, maybe our path will cross again someday, maybe not now, who knows... Like you always said, "Tan-awon lang...".

To sum it all up, What matter most now is we learn from those mistakes, OUR mistakes. Take good care of yourself Cha...
Anyway, Its my way of saying thanks to you. Have a smile, good luck and I'm leaving...

Yours Truly,
Ian